You know that no one can really answer this for you don't you? But perhaps we can all help you get to the place where you can decide for yourself.
Have you done a google for the spoon theory? It is a wonderful way to visualise what is happening to us - what it is actually like to live with a condition such as ours. Originally it was used to help our family and friends understand but I have found it vital in my own understanding.
I am 54 now. I have always loved the outdoors. I love walking and gardening and birdwatching ............... oh well you get the picture. I was so glad when we decided to buy our last home in a beautiful part of the world, just 5 minutes walk from the open countryside. There is just one problem though - since we moved here my condition has deteriorated and I can now no longer walk for 5 minutes. I have always been fiercely independent and I just don't want strangers helping me to stand up when I can't manage it. I don't want strangers picking up my shopping when my arms give way and it all goes over the floor. And I most certainly do not want to have to use a wheel chair to go shopping. (Although it was great fun playing dodgems in Tesco's the other week!)
I want to be able to cook my own meals - I have just had a new kitchen fitted and I did not design it just to use the microwave!
And just like you I am fed up of hurting, of feeling exhausted, of bits of me giving way, of being treated like a little old lady when I refuse to be middle-aged! And I am sick of people telling me of other people who "had the same thing and they got better in a couple of weeks so why all the fuss!"
I work full time as I am now the breadwinner - my husband has a disability and is unable to work.
But do you have any idea how many spoons it costs me to rant against life?
A couple of weeks ago I went to see my GP and asked her, quite tearfully, when was I going to get back to how I was 18 months ago. I didn't get the answer I wanted. She told me that it was highly unlikely although I may get a few "better" days but the reality was likely to be that I would have "worse" days.
And so I decided to cut down on the spoons I waste screaming that it isn't fair. I am going to try to enjoy the spoons I have each day and not fret about the spoons that I don't have any more.
Somehow or other you too are going to have to come to terms with what is happening to you. But you can't do that without a proper diagnosis. It may be that with physio and splints etc you may be able to get someway back to how you were and you may find that you can cope with your course. Or it may be that you need to find new ways to do old things! Have you discussed your difficulties with your college? They may be able to help you find ways to cope in the short term at least!
I have snazzy knee braces that help a lot, I have splints for my hands which are wonderful, I have a huge collection of drugs - painkillers etc - all of which help me to manage a bit better. And I am trying so hard not to waste my energy fretting over what I can no longer do!
Now I do understand that your situation as a young person is so much more difficult than mine as a 'slightly' older person. My daughter is waiting for her diagnosis and I do worry about how hard life may be for her! But there are ways of coping better with all this and you WILL find what they are!
Sending you loads of hugs and a few extra spoons for today. You were very brave in being open with us and I respect that - it is so very hard to say these things isn't it?