Hi Hannah hun,
I can only say I understand how you must be feeling. It is so hard for you right now. I am not surprised you want to cry. Crying isnt bad Hannah I think its a natural response to the frustration and justifiable anger you are feeling right now. I do think you need to speak to a medic about pain as it is simply not fair that you have to go through this without adequate pain relief. Even if they can't do anything at the hospital would it be worthwhile going to your gp to say just how much this is affecting you and to see if there is anything that he/she can offer to alleviate the pain. I think you must be doubly frustrated because your mobility is so impaired having both hands in casts. This is such a strain on all of you right now.
I know this may sound really really silly but while you are waiting to find out the outcome of the operation. Would it be possible to think of some ways that could raise your spirits. I completely understand that you are not able to do lots of things at the minute so we here are all going
Hannah out here peeps with suggestions
to have to put our thinking caps on to think of fun things that you can do. Now one thing that springs to mind is a proper massage or a new haircut some relflexolgy or maybe some acupuncture. Massages and haircuts etc can be got at local colleges for much reduced prices. I know these things won't change stuff with your hands for you Hannah but they would serve as a distraction. Even knowing for example that next Monday you were having a facial or a foot massage may be something to look forward to.
I wish I could wave a magic wand for you Hannah and have your pain so that you didn't have it I would if I could. I know it may sound silly but it won't always be like this Hannah. You will find a way forward because you are strong and you are brave and you are one of the most positive people. Right now it is so tough for you but I am pleased you have these boards where you know you can say it how it is and we will listen and understand. I hope tonight you manage some sleep as lack of sleep in itself is enough to make anyone cry. Take care Hannah and tonight everyone here I am sure who knows you is wishing you well.