Ello H
Oooh - their dancing is really impressive isn't it? It's like they're on strings coming up from those splits!
I don't know how massively you were into martial arts, and how much pain you forced yourself through in pursuit of your art but really ... what it comes down to ... Your HMS caused these problems. I'm not denying that the decisions we make can and do have an impact on our health long term, for myself I went through a phase of 'fear of pain, fear of movement' and really stopped 'moving about' so much, let alone exercising, and that lack of exercise caused significant muscle deconditioning leading to a significant worsening of my condition.... I point blank refuse to blame the problems on myself though - it's not my fault, just as it's not your fault either! We didn't know, and even if we did know, we didn't ask for these fragile bodies that react this way now did we? Nope - therefore -
not our fault. Just keep telling yourself over and over and over and over until you beleive it. In my experience the message takes a long time to get through, but I just keep telling myself - not my fault, all that matters is what I chose to do now, because those decisions can lead me to better places, but these health problems are not my fault - and
they're not your fault either H!!!! Unless you did this deliberately? Did you? Decide to take up martial arts to deliberately mash your bod up? ... I suspect not.
Oh hun, I do indeed empathise a great deal, many of us here do.

for you and

for your knee. I hate that 'one thing messes up, putting strain on another so another messes up'... aaargh! Not fun. Not fun at all.
I love that Over the Rainbow Clip too, you should post it on this here
'Cheer me up' thread.
Hmmmm

being as you haven't mentioned your GP, I am going to now jump to the conclusion that your GP ain't all that helpful? Is that right?
Occupational Therapy could be handy as Emma suggests because you can self-refer to them without asking your GP.
Take good care of yourself honey, you deserve it,
S