I've just finished my first year at university. I am back again in September and thought I did OK last year without support. However when I picked which modules to do next year, I realised I was looking at timetables and picking modules without early lectures. Then thinking back, I realised that actually I really really struggled with fatigue last year, I was falling asleep in lectures every morning even though I was getting early nights every night, I was not concentrating in lectures and coming straight home from uni and going to bed. This wasn't a problem in year one as I didn't have too many lectures, the results didn't mean anything and I wasn't working.
However, this year I will have more lectures, more modules, more early starts and late finishes, it counts for 30% of my final degree and I need to earn some money. I'm really worried as I am realising I kinda went through year one in a kind of trance and remember nothing about it now, I was just surviving! I'm terrified that I barely make it through lectures let alone be capable of doing the extra work/reading required for passing year two (and i just found out that noone on this course has got higher than a 2:1 without a chemistry A level which I don't have so I need to work even harder to do well). The thing is, whilst I suffer more with pain than I thought I did (I just started a new job waitressing which I used to be able to do with only a little pain and yet last night I came back in so much agony!) I don't really suffer too much during uni (I do make sure I rest loads!), I get aches when sitting too long in lectures and struggle with the walking in between but I manage (and luckily our department is really well off so we get printouts rather than writing notes
), because of this, I would feel like a fraud going to the uni support office and asking for some kind of help getting through the day, but I really can't just get on with it like I did last year. I need to take my HMS more seriously, but I really don't know what to do....do I deserve support for "just being tired" or should I just stop moaning?
I feel like I can think much more clearly about these things now it is the summer break and feel much more rested so I find myself brushing things off and saying "well it wasn't too bad last year"...but it was quite bad, and it can only get worse
....as an off point, does anyone find memory being a problem with HMS? I find I forget how bad pains are and end up feeling like every time is "the worst ever" cause I just can't remember how bad it was last time, maybe it's just a coping mechanism?
Sorry for the long essay but I really am worried!
I hope someone can help!!